fa comp ended.

ytd was the fa comp 07. we started off with prac, fd, then nursing.
although we've got high hopes in getting it, it wasn't a surprise in results. the disappointing thing is that, not that we are not comparable to the champs, but because we dint do our best. hah. how funny. the fact that its our last comp and yet the one we dint tried our best.if we had been able to take all these calm and steadily, and perform our usual standards, we could hav gotten it easily. all of us noe that home grd is not a reason. its just an excuse for us in self denial.

anw, over is over. and this time its really over. nomore next yr. its time to get bac to studies.

$20.00

Sometimes we just need to be reminded!

A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20.00 bill.
In the room of 200, he asked, "Who would like this $20 bill?"
Hands started going up.
He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this.
He proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill.
He then asked, "Who still wants it?"
Still the hands were up in the air.
Well, he replied, "What if I do this?"
And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe.
He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty.
"Now, who still wants it?"
Still the hands went into the air.
My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson.
No matter what I did to the money,
you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value.
It was still worth $20.
Many times in our lives,
we are
dropped,
crumpled,
and ground into the dirt
by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way.
We feel as though we are worthless.
But no matter what has happened or what will happen,
you will never lose your value.
Dirty or clean,
crumpled or finely creased,
you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you.
The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know,
but by WHO WE ARE and WHOSE WE ARE.
You are special-
Don't EVER forget it.
Count your blessings,
not your problems.

And remember:
amateurs built the ark ..
professionals built the Titanic.
If God brings you to it - He will bring you through it.

argh.


results are out. and i've screwed up big time. its only term one. TERM ONE! amaths is a confirmed fail, eng and chem maybe a mere pass overall. but who can i blamed but myself for all these? why cant we forgo results aft the tests? didnt moral ed always says results arent important? now i understand the ugly truth.

im disappointed. not onli with my results, but also with my family.. yes. i might be unfair to them, but i cant deceive myself. i had a great blow aft every paper was given bac. looked thru the ugly paper, and realised my foolish mistake. i pissed myself off. i was so disappointed at that point in time. my mom's nagging wasnt the first thing i thought of. i held much faith in her. i believed she wld understand me. i trusted she wld be supporting me. just like previous years when i got totally screwed up. but it wasnt the case.

the night before ytd's, i told them all the results. yes. it was in exchange for horrible remarks. they thought i dint giv a damn to the results. they thought i dint. they ask me for the reason, and i dint bothered to reply. rather, i dint even know how to answer this to myself! i know i got myself to blame for this fucking results. but...

things changed. issit bcos im a sec4 now? i hate this. she dint realised her words was harsh. she dint realised the words went in. she dint realised her words hurts.

she broke my trust in her.

i dint want to face my parents. rather, i dont know how to. i dont want to be questioned about my results. when they loved to talk about it. i want my results to soar. who doesnt? its not i dint giv a damn. or shld i be crying in front of you all the time to show that?

you dint realise, thats what hurts me most.

fuck.